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Hey, I'm Tenneil

I live in Perth, Australia, and this is my creative outlet where I blog about beauty, my life and everything in between. I enjoy the '80s, the '90s and anything French, and some of my favourite things in life include music,  film, summer and a nice cup of tea.

Life Lately

Life Lately

I love blogging, I really do, but every time I attempt to post more on this space, there always seems to be something else that requires my time and effort. My head can be brimming with ideas and I get really excited, but then I get a little bit of "me" time and I suddenly lose all motivation because I need to reenergise and just take it easy. It's been a whirlwind of a month for me as over the course of these last four weeks, I've found a housemate, an apartment and I've already started paying rent for the first time in my life. As of the 19th of this month, I will officially be living in Melbourne!

If you've been reading my blog over the past year or so, you'll know that moving to Melbourne has been one of my biggest dreams. I had come to a point in my life where I really did not know what I was doing with it (a "quarter-life crisis", if you will) and basically, I had to get real with myself and start asking those uncomfortable questions I had been putting off for years. Who am I? What do I want to do? What are my goals and dreams? Am I proud to be the person I am? The truth is, I wasn't proud of myself and I didn't have an inkling of an answer to the former questions, so last year, I set out to go find out.

I had moved to Sydney temporarily as I got accepted to do a three-month social media internship at a company called Jaden Social. It was the first step I took in escaping from my comfort zone and while living in Sydney wasn't originally part of the plan, I had difficulty finding work experience here at home. If you're a creative, Perth is not the place to be! Mining? Yes. Raising a family? Yes. Retiring? There's no better place. I was very close to getting a full time job as a graphic designer at a construction company, but I didn't want to waste time and trap myself in a full time job that wasn't what I really wanted, so I decided to take the path less followed by living off my savings account, doing unpaid work and living in a city I'd never been to. I remember getting lost on the awesome double decker trains on the way to my new Airbnb home from the airport, but it was all smooth sailing from there. Not only did I get to work with fellow creatives with a similar mindset, similar dreams and a tremendous love of music like me, but I got to make new friends, catch up with old ones and explore a new city. I saw Australia's iconic Sydney Opera House and Harbour Bridge for the first time, but more importantly, tried the amazingness that is Messina ice cream. I recommend it to all my Perth peeps travelling to Sydney and much to my delight, there's one in Melbourne too!

I came back home from Sydney towards the end of 2013 and it was really, really hard to do that as I felt like I was taking a step back in my dreams. In order to go after what I really wanted in life though, it had to be done. I was lucky enough to be able to come back to my retail job, working hard to get my savings back up again and I made the commitment to get my driver's licence without quitting this time. It's something I wouldn't have been able to do anywhere else but home as I didn't have a car to practise and do my supervised hours in. Over the course of a few years, I had failed my driving test three times, but with a newfound confidence and positive mindset, I finally passed in April of this year. After completing my supervised hours of driving and passing my hazard perception test, I officially got my licence in September! When the funds allow, I'll probably eventually get a car in Melbourne.

With my internship last year and getting my licence a couple of months ago, there was really nothing holding me back from moving to Melbourne anymore. There was nothing more I wanted, but when the time finally came, I totally freaked out. My friends kept asking me what was going on with my move to Melbourne and I often doubted whether telling everyone I wanted to move was a good decision just in case it didn't happen. I just got so swept up and excited for my own dreams that I wanted to let everyone know though and the thing is, when you do that, the people in your life will hold you to it and not let you give up. I checked Flatmate Finders everyday, but I never got that gut feeling where the people or the place felt right. There were times where I felt like I had to settle for anything I could get, but I just couldn't risk feeling miserable in a new home without my family and friends around me. It's really important to me to live in a home I love and feel comfortable in. I was worried moving to Melbourne was never going to happen and that 2015 would come around and I was still stuck in Perth, but out of the blue a few weeks ago, a lovely acquaintance living in Melbourne messaged me on Facebook saying her lease was up at her current place, and asked when I was moving and if we could potentially be housemates.

The opportunity felt too good to be true, but the thing about life is that everything has a way of working out and falls into place if you let it and don't give up. I started following my housemate, Giselle, randomly on Twitter when I saw she was mutual friends with Jess, Katrina and an old LiveJournal friend of mine. Plus, she seemed super cool too. I had been sporadically asking her for advice on living in Melbourne and it's funny to think that if it weren't for blogging, I may not be moving right now! I haven't actually met Giselle in person yet, but if there's anything I've learnt from the online world, it's that Internet friends are awesome. I'm excited to decorate our little apartment and make it a home, try wicked vegan food (she's vegan), learn more about feminism and marathon Jason Schwartzman movies together. It's not my dream apartment and I can't exactly afford the nicest furniture, but the first time moving out of home and especially to a different city never really is a dream (unless you're super rich, which I am not), but I will have my independence and I'll have more opportunities in finding my dream job. At the moment, I'm still in retail as I got a job transfer to another store and while it's not ideal, at least it's still money coming in and I'm really grateful for that. I want to own my own white-walled apartment with hardwood floors and work for an awesome digital marketing agency, but hey, it's all baby steps and nothing comes without hard work!

I love dreaming about the things I want in my future, but I also have to remember to be happy for what I have in the present. I'm really grateful to Giselle for finding our place and taking care of things while I'm still in Perth, and I'm really grateful for the opportunities blogging has given me. It's allowed me to be creative, express myself, share my love of beauty with fellow junkies and connect with people all around the world. I love being a contributor to A Little Opulent and hopefully this hobby that I love dearly will lead me in the right direction to finding that job I want so badly. I feel like a broken record saying all this, but I really do mean it, and once all my things arrive in Melbourne, I can't wait to set up my bedroom and get back into the swing of blogging. I'm hoping a new room and a new city that's more creative will motivate me into actually putting all those blog post ideas into action and inspire me to come up with more. I suck at this whole blogging thing sometimes, but I've got dreams to chase and goals to accomplish!

I've packed up all my belongings and the removalists collected everything a week ago, so I've got clothes and makeup to get me through a couple of weeks and I'm currently sleeping on a fold-out bed. Fun times! Even if I could blog more, I don't have everything with me (okay, so I do have three foundations, but how I was supposed to decide on just one base?!) and I don't particularly fancy taking my product photos on this bedspread (I was 15, don't judge). The past two weeks have been dedicated to working as much as I can and spending time with my family and friends before I leave. I never forget how lucky I am for the beautiful people I have in my life, but gosh, I am just so blessed. It's so hard leaving them and sometimes I even feel guilty, but I'm doing this for me and the only person you can live life for is yourself. As I've had something on every single day with dinners, lunches, going out and catch ups, I've visited so many cool eateries, cafés and bars in little Perth and it's been fun getting to know my home city a bit better.

Until my belongings arrive in Melbourne and I have the Internet set up in my apartment, this will probably be my last blog post for a while, so please bear with me! I admit I'm a pretty slack blogger, but I really appreciate all of you that read and comment. It's always so lovely to know people enjoy something you love doing and I'm going to make it a goal of mine to find a better balance between real life stuff and blogging. Obviously, it's a bit difficult to do that right now and I now need to focus my energy on starting my career, but it's important to make the time for your hobbies and unleashing creativity too. Even right now, typing up this blog post, I forgot how much I missed it. I've done a lot of growing up these past couple of years and I'm excited to share this new chapter in my life with you all! I'm actually like an adult... type of person now. Maybe Melbourne will work out, maybe it won't, I don't know yet, but I owe it to myself to find out. 

Bright Eyes

Bright Eyes

The Business of Blogging

The Business of Blogging