Life Begins at the End of Your Comfort Zone
I know I've been doing quite a few lifestyle posts lately, but I come bearing some exciting news! I've been looking for jobs and internships online these past few months and I had one particularly exciting interview a couple of weeks ago for a company called Jaden Social. Based in Sydney, they're a digital marketing agency specialising in music. Social media and music? Sounds like my dream job! I had my Skype interview on the Monday and by the Saturday, I had heard back from them. I saw the e-mail notification on my phone and I freaked out. I was too scared to check the e-mail, but knowing I would've had to sooner or later, I did, and I was beaming when I discovered I HAD BEEN OFFERED THE INTERNSHIP!
I hadn't thought of an answer straight away, but with a little encouraging push from my friends, I said yes. I mean, it's not that I was going to say no, but the fact that I'd be committing to something so huge. The reason this is such a big deal is because I live in Perth, which is on the other side of the country. It's unpaid and I've never lived out of home before, so it's going to be a real challenge. Despite what you may think from my shopping habits, I do have savings I can dip into. I'm eligible for government benefits, but it's not a lot. As I look for a place to stay, I'll be saying goodbye to makeup and clothes for three months and hello bills and groceries, though I won't be surprised if I over-indulge at the supermarkets! It doesn't make it any easier that I won't be able to take all my makeup, skincare, nail polish and clothes with me, but perhaps it'll do me some good to learn to be less materialistic and how to budget. I missed my wardrobe so much while travelling in Europe for six weeks, but nothing worth having in life comes easy and I'm sure I'll survive! Hopefully I can find some casual work while over there to help me out and to meet new people.
Ever since I graduated in 2009, I had been so confused as to what exactly I wanted to do with my university degree. I didn't feel cut out for the advertising world and just didn't think I had that flair for graphic design. I never felt like I was good enough to get my dream job, so I never tried. I didn't even know what it was. When I came across social media jobs late last year, however, I immediately knew this is what I wanted to do. Did it motivate me? Not exactly. I still didn't believe in myself and all I could think about was a relationship that made me so unhappy. It was only after a painful breakup and feeling like I had nothing in my life that I started to realise I needed to change my attitude in order to rebuild myself up after feeling so low. After processing the hurt, at the beginning of the year, I started sorting my life out and figuring out just exactly what I wanted to do with it. For the first time in my life, I started believing in myself and the changes were almost immediate.
I was very close to getting a full time graphic design job for a construction company in Perth, which may sound crazy not to accept, but honestly, it didn't feel right. I didn't want to potentially settle in Perth when I dream of leaving everyday and I didn't want to settle for a job that wasn't my dream. Having the mediocre 9-5 job where you can't wait to go home at the end of each day just doesn't appeal to me. If you're not sleeping, you spend most of your time working and it's so important to find your passion in life and love what you do. I realise that we need to start somewhere, but if there's anything I've learnt, it's to follow your gut and never settle. You'll be wasting your time and in the end, just feel hurt and unhappy. And I know that from experience.
It feels totally unreal to say I'm going to be living in Sydney. I'll be on the plane and I still won't believe it. I'll come home having done the internship still not believing I did it. I'm scared, but not scared enough to not follow my dreams. I want to move over east soon, anyway, and this will help prepare me. It sounds stupid, but reading a tonne of inspirational quotes on Tumblr has helped me so much. A year ago, I would've read them, but not have understood them. I'm so excited to be working in social media and music, as well as living in a city I've never been to. I've seen London's Big Ben, the city view from the top of Paris' Eiffel Tower and I've climbed to the top of The Colosseum in Rome, but never have I seen Sydney's iconic Harbour Bridge and Opera House in my home country. I can't wait to do other touristy things such as visit Bondi Beach and the Blue Mountains, and hopefully meet up with fellow Aussie bloggers, Kat and Jessica. I also really want to have an afternoon tea at Ladurée, eat at Adriano Zumbo's dessert train and if I can afford it, a tiny bit of shopping! Let's be real, it's going to happen.
I'll definitely be taking lots of photos capturing my life in Sydney and I can't wait to share them with you all. I'm not sure how regular blogging will go as I won't have my pretty white bedsheets (ah, blogger problems!), but I'll see if I can take lots of photos before I leave. What ever happens, please bare with me. I finally feel like I'm on the right track in life and taking this internship is only going to open the door to so many great opportunities. When you believe in yourself, others believe in you too and I am so grateful to Jaden Social for this incredible opportunity. I really hope I'll be able to live up to their expectations, as well as my own. I am also grateful to you guys who read and follow my blog because it gives me motivation. If it weren't for my passion for blogging and music, there's no way I would've been offered this internship. It feels so rewarding to get positive feedback from something I love and have the potential to be a part of an industry that's always changing, always growing and something I'll always be learning from. It's given me so much confidence and instead of feeling scared of the future, I'm really excited to grow up and be the person I'm meant to be.
It may sound cheesy, but thinking positive really does lead to a positive life. Let go of whatever is toxic and hold on to what brings you only happiness. Whatever your gut is telling you, it's probably right and never settle for less than your dreams. My life has certainly become a lot richer since I have and I've gained so much more confidence from doing so. It's hard to stay strong and positive all the time, but that's okay. We would never experience joy without pain and sometimes through pain, you gain the most powerful growth and life lessons. Just keep moving forward. I'm still the world's worst procrastinator and my sleeping patterns are horrific, but we're always works in progress. Never give up!